You don’t deserve me.

One of the most painful things in life is losing what u fear losing the most, isn’t it? Ever loved and lost? You may understand what I’m trying to convey. This one is my fourth poem and possibly the last one from me.

You don’t deserve me.

You deserve to hold an umbrella
When the sky decides to pour,
As I get drenched for hours in the rain,
Maybe three, maybe four.

The way you had me drowning
In the aura of your charm,
All I wanted to do was
Run to you and grab hold of your arm.

Never wanted to let you go,
Didn’t wanna go through this pain,
Miss those cozy arms around me
In this freezing rain.

All I ever wanted
Was to see your smiling face,
You should stay away from me,
I’m such a big disgrace.

Those dreams, those moments
Those feelings, those desires,
Now I know weren’t meant for me,
Time to chuck them into the fire.

I wish all the happiness in this world
Is created to kiss you,
I deserve to stay in the dark
And continue to miss you.

I’m trying hard to forget,
Trying not to think,
But the harder I try,
The deeper I sink.

I’m sorry I hurt you so bad,
Turned into reality that used to be your fears,
No matter what I do or say now,
I know I deserve these tears.

I’ve touched love, so pure
It used to make me high
Never thought I’d have to let it go,
Would have to say good-bye.

Don’t wanna let you go yet,
But the wrongs I can’t deny,
Hurts too much to listen to your voice,
So I sit by my window and cry.

You have the right to refuse,
Even if I say please,
Even if I beg you not to,
You have the right to leave.

You deserve true love,
One that lasts forever,
All I can do is assure you,
I’ll cross your path never.

I pray they hold your hand forever,
Walk along with you,
And I’ll be the star that falls
To make your dearest wish come true.

-Chandra Sen