Love Actually

Love, that’s probably the most complicated thing to describe. I bet even Einstein and Newton would have failed on the subject of love. It’s like summer rains, you never know when it’s gonna pay you a visit and by the time you start to enjoy the touch of the tiny droplets against your cheeks, it’s gone. Of course nothing lasts forever but wouldn’t it be great if you could defy that rule?

I’m sure you all have seen the movie Love Actually and half of you would be claiming it as the best film you have ever seen. Well, count me in. Was watching it for the umpteenth time yesterday, yet, every time I watch it, the movie has its own way of turning me into a deeper shade of blue. Reminds me of all that I have lost and found in my life…

Lost a lot of friends, not because I couldn’t get along with them, but our individual careers made us go separate ways. Sometimes I wonder if it’s really worth the sacrifice. So much so that now I don’t even know how and where they are… I’ve lost best friends, not because of career, but just that we couldn’t get along which sounds ironic because unless we got along in the first place we wouldn’t have been best friends. I’ve lost love, which is painful, yes, but I won’t hype it like our stupid Bollywood movies. But, yes, it is more than worth the mention. I know there’s nothing better in this world than the feeling of being in love. And I believe it’s not the fact that there’s someone who loves you but the fact that you have someone to love. There’s nothing that can be more fulfilling. To the world, you can be a very strong person, but when you are with them it’s totally different. Just one hug from that special someone can completely melt you down and make you feel vulnerable and the same hug can make you feel like nothing in the world can hurt you because they will protect you.

But that’s not all that love is about. It’s also about giving wings to the one you love and allow them to fly, high. So that at the end of the day when they come back to you, you know that they are going to stay forever. And if they don’t, try to be glad that at least one of you is happy.

So whenever I watch Love Actually, it transports me back to those old times and reminds me of all that I’ve been through, I see all these past years floating in front of my eyes. But at the same time I tell myself it’s not the end of the world. There is still a lot of love left amidst the hatred splashed across the morning newspaper everyday. And all that you have to do is stretch out your hands and grab hold of it. You don’t know what’s in store for you tomorrow. So make the most of what you have today. Screw consequences. Listen to the song “kholo kholo” from Taare Zameen Par - “…Dil khush jahan, teri toh Manzil hai wahin!” :-)

Losing what I love the most…

What a day! Losing what was most precious to me…

Its only 10:00am and my day is only getting started. And I’m not precognitious. So obviously I’m not talking about today. So if you’re bright enough you may have guessed it right that I’m talking about yesterday.

So yesterday was the most saddening day for me in months. Lost the one thing that I can’t live without… No, I’m not talking about my boyfriend. I’m a Taurean so think materialistic. Lost my 2GB memory card, read 2GB of my fav’est music. Well my freaking phone just won’t read it. Don’t know if I should blame my precious little memory card or my sweetheart phone. After all what good is a Walkman phone sans music. I’m sure all you Sony Ericsson lovers know what I mean. As for you Nokia Express Music or whatever lovers, I just feel sorry for your make believe great music life. Although right now you can consider yourselves more fortunate than me. As for those of you who belong to neither of the above 2 genres, well I’m not going to honour you by making a mention in this post because it’s dedicated music which obviously doesn’t flow in your blood.

Anyways I was talking about my sad little yesterday… You must be thinking what’s the big deal? If it’s the phone, just take it the service centre and they’ll fix it, then let me enlighten you, my phones over a year old so outside the purview of warranty and besides I don’t have the time to got to the service centre with my 7 days a week hectic schedule. Could you lend a helping hand there? And if you think it’s just the card, get a new one. Can you lend a helping hand there too? Well I can’t quite afford it right now.

So friends and family of you are reading this you know now what to get me for my birthday, a new phone, preferably another Sony Ericsson Walkman phone, with a 4GB memory card, I can get an upgrade right? No? Alright 2GB then? No? Okay 1GB? And please don’t say no now. You don’t want me to die without all my fav music now do you? And you better not say yes now. By the way, my birthday is 5 months away and I’ll actually die without music on the go by then. So how about gifting it to me on some earlier occasion, say on your birthday as a special return gift to me or maybe on Valentines’ day or even Holi… Well I never promised I wont burn a hole in your pockets :-P

Anyways I think I’ve bugged you enough for the day and also given you a reason to hide from me from now on and yes, and if your deciding not to then I’m still serious about you lending me a generous helping hand :-P

Catching up!

You must be under the impression that I have given up on my blog since I haven’t updated it in over a month now. Well I too was thinking on the similar grounds. Since no one reads this piece of crap why bother wasting time writing stuff that’s never gonna be appreciated or in the least read. Besides sometimes it is not easy to think of something to write about. I guess you can say this is a part of living in a busy city. After all its not parties that keep you busy it’s the work and commuting from one end of the city to the other twice a day that actually takes up your time. And days just go by you and you never know what your missing till its too late and one day you just wake up and realize you have lost your old buddies because you don’t know where they are as you haven’t been keeping in touch with them. Which makes me wonder right now why am I spending my precious time writing this blog instead of calling up those sweet old friends of mine :-) now that’s what you cal a new years resolution-catch up with old friends!

When you have nothing to do...

Yeah, these words pretty much sum up my activities for the last three weeks or more. Well you see when you are down with an illness like jaundice you don't have too many things to keep you busy at home all day long. All that you are capable of doing is sleep all day or rent out DVDs or paint your toe nails then wipe it off with a nail paint remover and then re-paint them or scrap random people on orkut or fill up one's blog with utter crap 'cause after all your brain has not been fed and then thank people who actually manage to read it ( of course, with due respect to YOU ) and eat absolutely nothing. No wonder one gets weak.

Anyways its been like a month now and I am running out of things to do that don't require any energy spending coz believe me one month of no fats, no proteins doesn't exactly spell He-man and studies is like the last thing on my mind right now. Although looking at the bright side I am glad I got this nice long vacation which comes to an end with the end of this month. Well deserved, but somehow I'm not happy that I'm getting well now.

Oh I'm going to miss waking up at 10:00 in the morning, watching downloaded old episodes of CSI for breakfast, watching some funny movie for lunch and orkutting all evening and then watching a nice scary movie for dinner and not retiring till 02:00 in the morning... Long live cellphones! I bet you feel jealous of me now but hey don't be. When you get jaundice and are this ill I'll envy you then and hey look at the bright side, there are still millions of people in this city who will never know what its like to have time to do nothing!

Love, friendship, etc.

Translated into our National lingo, that becomes Dil, Dosti, etc. Yeah I know , you probably think what kind of a girl am I to watch such a creepy movie. But before you think so, let me tell you it wasn't my idea. I know there are plenty of other good movies that I'd rather watch than that stupid little movie that claims to depict the life of a teenager in college.
What nonsense! I was a teenager too. In fact from a college where studies are considered as secondary aka Mithibai College. Yeah which is why you will find at least 10% of my college and classmates are celebrities. Right from those pathetic so called talent hunt participants and the hosts to the biggies like Kareena Kapoor. And our vain professors think we would believe them when they say that Kareena was a more sincere student than us. Yeah right.
Anyways I was talking about the movie and honestly there is nothing to say except you are lucky if you gave it a miss. And for those who are still curious take my word "Stay Away." This is like another one of those sermons I issue in public interest.

Opportunity Cost (in Accounting terms)

Imagine this... You have a nice little mobile phone. Its about a year old. The only problem you face is that the sound output isn't satisfactory. You come across an offer that a much better but a bit expensive cellphone was going at a discount. You think if you should give up your current phone for simply failing to stand up to your musical standards or continue with it 'coz hey the phone's always been there by your side. When your 2nd boyfriend dumped you for that hot girl or you dumped your 3rd boyfriend 'coz he couldn't stop leering at your best friend. The phones been your best buddy by connecting you to other people and helping you spread rumors about those guys... Hence after some more pondering and maybe some kinda emotional attachment to your old phone or merely the new phone not being worth giving your dear old phone up for, you finally decide to stick with the old piece. But after a week or so you start to get restless. You think you should have taken the new phone during that discount offer. But now a week later you realize its too late and the offers gone and now u will be stuck with your old phone.
Sounds familiar? Maybe not a cellphone but some other object. Or maybe a person as in you have a boyfriend who doesn't have time for you and then a much smarter guy asks you out but you decline as you don't want to dump your old boyfriend nor cheat on him 'coz you think you still love him and he will find time for you but even after a week's time he doesn't and then u regret not grabbing the opportunity (read: the smarter guy's hand).
Funny isn't it how being attached to something can be a loss-making deal? You knew it was time to move on but you're so afraid of change that you just cant let go. What do you do now? Try to be satisfied with the old cellphone or just go and get the new phone anyways? If you say get the new phone will you but the same piece that was previously at a discount or get some other handset this time?

Not getting any better...

Yeah, I know its been quite a while since I posted anything after contracting the pretty pathetic Cold... Remember my Secret Seminar? Yeah, that was the best decision I ever took in my life Anyways what do you know, September & October 2007 are bad months for me health-wise. Or maybe I've just become a Defective Piece now.
No sooner did I manage to rid myself of the Cold that I came down with something called as Contact Dermatitis. Don't worry its not as dangerous as it sounds. Its just a type of Allergy to something. Except I still cant figure out what I'm allergic to and hence the allergy keeps recurring. Anyhow I've almost recovered from it by now and I guess God was a little jealous that I'm good to go now so He gave me something new to deal with.
Conjunctivitis it is. Yes, Itchy, Reddened, Swollen and Painful eyes. As though someone punched you right in the eye. And if its just your left eye thats affected today, it will be your right eye too tomorrow. See how much your right eye loves your left eye?
Well I'm sure you know of other people too who are suffering from Conjunctivitis these days coz almost 30% of the people I know are. Including a couple of other people at my place. And also a lot of people in not just Mumbai but Hyderabad too, I hear. So I guess mera number bhi aana hi tha.
But I hate being ill all the time. I wish I had taken up Medicine instead of CA or maybe had more Doctors for friends. And who knows, maybe its the Pharmaceutical Companies that make medicines for Conjunctivitis who are spreading the disease which is slowly turning into an epidemic now.
Well God, I hope this is the end of bad-health period for me. Else if I don't do well in my exams you will be responsible. Also you too please pray for me so that I get well soon. Loads of Thanks in advance :-)