Don’t go tonight.

You read the first one; you read the second one, now its time to share with you my third poem. It’s strange what 15 minutes can do to you when you know they will be leaving (read: going offline) you after 15 minutes. Believe it or not but that’s what made me write this one.

Don’t go tonight.

Starry sky, the moon shining so bright,

Love this feeling, bathing in the moon’s light,

Stars, the moon shining upon me, so pure and white,

And the wind kissing my cheeks, ever so slight,

While the world’s sleeping, only my dreams are in flight,

Feel like I’m on top of the world, afraid of the height,

Never will be an evening so beautiful, or there might,

But I know this is the moment, ‘coz it feels so right,

And all I do is miss u, waiting for you to be in sight,

Just the thought of being alone, oh! What a fright!

Don’t like this distance anymore, save me from this plight,

I need you to protect me, my shining armor clad knight,

You know you are my sunshine, you are my delight,

It’s only in your arms, where I feel alright,

I want you to hug me, and keep holding me tight,

Love me forever, don’t leave me and go tonight.

-Chandra Sen.

Thinking of you

You read my first poem and you survived, which is evident from the fact that you have managed to reach upto this post and which means I’m not half bad at this :-) . So to test your patience, here’s another one…

Thinking of you

The sun smiles at me, wishes me a day brand new,
But I don’t even look at him, 'coz I’m just thinking of you.

A plate of sandwich in my hand n my mom yelling at me to chew,
Her words don’t even reach me 'coz I’m just thinking of you

Sick of the crowded trains, wonder when I’ll be through…
But they don’t bother me as much 'coz I’m just thinking of you.

Back at work, handling assignments, more or few,
I seem too cool about it 'coz I’m still thinking of you.

Waiting for the sun to set, so that I’ll be home soon,
Longing to talk to you 'coz I’m still thinking of you.

I spend long hours talking yet they seem to be so few
Don’t wanna hang up the phone 'coz I’m still thinking of you.

You seem like a distant dream, and dreams don’t come true,
I wish I could have u for real 'coz I’m still thinking of you.

The days feel so empty n the nights are so damn blue,
I cry over this distance as I keep thinking of you.

-Chandra Sen.

I miss you

So far if you have read my blog you know how good or bad I am at writing prose. Thanks to someone’s who forced me to do this today will be the first time you get to witness my poetic talents too. I never knew I could rhyme words and make sense but let’s see how you like my first ever try at the job. Please be honest and be generous with a beginner and someone who’s still worse than an amateur. Anyways the most important point is that I'm happy with it.

I'm calling this poem "I miss you"
So here it goes...


I’m lying in my bed,
I’m staring at the ceiling,
So many thoughts...
What is this I’m feeling?

I keep on staring,
But there’s nothing I see.
Is this really love
Or is it just me?

I wish I could see u,
Feel u next to me,
But, afraid I am.
Will there ever be a 'WE'?

All I have is just today,
And there maybe no tomorrow,
But I’m ready to take the risk,
I’m ready to face the sorrow.

All I need right now
Is to be with you
I really, really miss you
And I know that's true.

It’s not easy to walk together,
Together we can figure how.
Let’s forget what's uncertain,
Will u be mine for now?

-Chandra Sen.

Right or Wrong?

I’m sure, not once but many a times in your life you must have faced a situation where you didn’t know whether to do something or not. It’s more or less like your hearts begging you to go ahead but your brain/conscience is not giving you the green signal. All your heart cares about is the possible moment of happiness but your over-smart brain just doesn’t want you to be happy and keeps reasoning with you that it would be unacceptable to the anyways useless society and its age-old morals. Don’t worry. It’s probably just jealous of your heart. After all it’s the brain whose primary job is to think but you want to listen to your heart who always keeps messing with your brain.

So now what do you do in this situation? Who do you listen to? Listen to your brain, ‘coz, after all, it’s always right and will always keep troubles at bay? But your heart keeps behaving like a child, “I want chocolates, I want chocolates, I want chocolates…” that’s all it says and you know it wont stop till it gets the chocolates and if you don’t give the chocolates to it, its going to cry n make you feel sad about it.

So what should you do? Make the kid happy or listen to the wise guy?

I’m thinking of making the kid happy by giving it what it wants. Unless I take risks I won’t have any gains. Just like Bryan Uncle once said, “Well, it maybe wrong but baby, it sure feels right.” So be it. What’s the point of having principles that keep you away from what makes you happy? Even if it’s just momentary. I’m just going to ask the wise guy to muster courage and face the consequences when they arise. After all he’s the intelligent one and not the kid.

Besides you know what they say. “When you don’t know whether to do something or something or not, JUST DO IT (yeah, Nike got something right). When you get old and look back at your life, you wont regret the things you have done as much as the things you never did”

Love Actually

Love, that’s probably the most complicated thing to describe. I bet even Einstein and Newton would have failed on the subject of love. It’s like summer rains, you never know when it’s gonna pay you a visit and by the time you start to enjoy the touch of the tiny droplets against your cheeks, it’s gone. Of course nothing lasts forever but wouldn’t it be great if you could defy that rule?

I’m sure you all have seen the movie Love Actually and half of you would be claiming it as the best film you have ever seen. Well, count me in. Was watching it for the umpteenth time yesterday, yet, every time I watch it, the movie has its own way of turning me into a deeper shade of blue. Reminds me of all that I have lost and found in my life…

Lost a lot of friends, not because I couldn’t get along with them, but our individual careers made us go separate ways. Sometimes I wonder if it’s really worth the sacrifice. So much so that now I don’t even know how and where they are… I’ve lost best friends, not because of career, but just that we couldn’t get along which sounds ironic because unless we got along in the first place we wouldn’t have been best friends. I’ve lost love, which is painful, yes, but I won’t hype it like our stupid Bollywood movies. But, yes, it is more than worth the mention. I know there’s nothing better in this world than the feeling of being in love. And I believe it’s not the fact that there’s someone who loves you but the fact that you have someone to love. There’s nothing that can be more fulfilling. To the world, you can be a very strong person, but when you are with them it’s totally different. Just one hug from that special someone can completely melt you down and make you feel vulnerable and the same hug can make you feel like nothing in the world can hurt you because they will protect you.

But that’s not all that love is about. It’s also about giving wings to the one you love and allow them to fly, high. So that at the end of the day when they come back to you, you know that they are going to stay forever. And if they don’t, try to be glad that at least one of you is happy.

So whenever I watch Love Actually, it transports me back to those old times and reminds me of all that I’ve been through, I see all these past years floating in front of my eyes. But at the same time I tell myself it’s not the end of the world. There is still a lot of love left amidst the hatred splashed across the morning newspaper everyday. And all that you have to do is stretch out your hands and grab hold of it. You don’t know what’s in store for you tomorrow. So make the most of what you have today. Screw consequences. Listen to the song “kholo kholo” from Taare Zameen Par - “…Dil khush jahan, teri toh Manzil hai wahin!” :-)

Losing what I love the most…

What a day! Losing what was most precious to me…

Its only 10:00am and my day is only getting started. And I’m not precognitious. So obviously I’m not talking about today. So if you’re bright enough you may have guessed it right that I’m talking about yesterday.

So yesterday was the most saddening day for me in months. Lost the one thing that I can’t live without… No, I’m not talking about my boyfriend. I’m a Taurean so think materialistic. Lost my 2GB memory card, read 2GB of my fav’est music. Well my freaking phone just won’t read it. Don’t know if I should blame my precious little memory card or my sweetheart phone. After all what good is a Walkman phone sans music. I’m sure all you Sony Ericsson lovers know what I mean. As for you Nokia Express Music or whatever lovers, I just feel sorry for your make believe great music life. Although right now you can consider yourselves more fortunate than me. As for those of you who belong to neither of the above 2 genres, well I’m not going to honour you by making a mention in this post because it’s dedicated music which obviously doesn’t flow in your blood.

Anyways I was talking about my sad little yesterday… You must be thinking what’s the big deal? If it’s the phone, just take it the service centre and they’ll fix it, then let me enlighten you, my phones over a year old so outside the purview of warranty and besides I don’t have the time to got to the service centre with my 7 days a week hectic schedule. Could you lend a helping hand there? And if you think it’s just the card, get a new one. Can you lend a helping hand there too? Well I can’t quite afford it right now.

So friends and family of you are reading this you know now what to get me for my birthday, a new phone, preferably another Sony Ericsson Walkman phone, with a 4GB memory card, I can get an upgrade right? No? Alright 2GB then? No? Okay 1GB? And please don’t say no now. You don’t want me to die without all my fav music now do you? And you better not say yes now. By the way, my birthday is 5 months away and I’ll actually die without music on the go by then. So how about gifting it to me on some earlier occasion, say on your birthday as a special return gift to me or maybe on Valentines’ day or even Holi… Well I never promised I wont burn a hole in your pockets :-P

Anyways I think I’ve bugged you enough for the day and also given you a reason to hide from me from now on and yes, and if your deciding not to then I’m still serious about you lending me a generous helping hand :-P

Catching up!

You must be under the impression that I have given up on my blog since I haven’t updated it in over a month now. Well I too was thinking on the similar grounds. Since no one reads this piece of crap why bother wasting time writing stuff that’s never gonna be appreciated or in the least read. Besides sometimes it is not easy to think of something to write about. I guess you can say this is a part of living in a busy city. After all its not parties that keep you busy it’s the work and commuting from one end of the city to the other twice a day that actually takes up your time. And days just go by you and you never know what your missing till its too late and one day you just wake up and realize you have lost your old buddies because you don’t know where they are as you haven’t been keeping in touch with them. Which makes me wonder right now why am I spending my precious time writing this blog instead of calling up those sweet old friends of mine :-) now that’s what you cal a new years resolution-catch up with old friends!